Mine Mind Meandering

Me walking around on campus today

I FUCKING LOVE RAIN!!!!

I don't know if I am more amused or annoyed that I am up so early on a Sunday morning that the newspaper hasn't even arrived yet...

Such productivity; think of the possibilities!

Think of how much you've already done today compared to me, whose day only started now!

Since I have been at work all those hours, exactly nothing!

Wonderful, think of the money

that is probably going to be swallowed up by the huge void that is student debt

Note to self:
Once basketball season starts, have a calendar of the games prepared, not because you plan on going to any of them, but so you know which days to NOT park in the lots you payed money for, because if you park there on those days, you will get ticketed and/or towed

Spider legs
by HareTrinity

Okay! So!
Just took my first linguistics exam.
at almost two months in, it is the last class to have given an exam thus far. Hell, my anatomy class is getting ready to take our third here pretty soon.

Linguistics is the class I have probably been struggling the most in, except maybe stats, so I was pretty nervous. I studied, I memorized, but sitting there waiting for the exam to get passed out, I was still shaking a little bit.

Tweeenty minutes later, out of the room I walk.
I was one of the first to leave.
And I actually felt that I did pretty well

OAINDfoas;n g aljg oasigjasmas;lfnkasoh
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH
I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!

Hmm, what to do on a Friday?

Option 1: after my last class, try to get into the basketball opening ceremony that people will have started waiting in line for today, IF I get in, wait 3 hours for the event to start, and from there who the fuck knows

Option 2: Go play in the Alumni Band at my old high school's football game. Been wanting to do this for a couple of years (got rained out last year), pretty much guaranteed I will see some old friends, and get to see a football game for free.

Option 3: Do nothing. Go to HyVee, get some cookies, and hang around with my friends all afternoon (and night)

Option 4: the fuck if I know

Option 5: wait, I was supposed to come up with more options???

Option 6: No

Option 7: I SAID NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Opt-----

...yeah we're not doing that. seriously though, no idea what I am doing tomorrow

That moment I when I realize I am finished with classes by 10 am tomorrow morning

In a world consumed by the toxic pollution of over-industrialization, who better to be the hero and save the people... than a slime girl!

Must. Make. Anime!!!

I don't think I have ever seen anybody 'NOPE' that hard before...


also, because I want these notes off my dash
*throws down notes*

I became best friends with a lizard in Nepal over the summer because he ate all the cockroaches in my room
Med student syndrome- where you think you have every disease you read or study about
There is a fair portion of the mental health field that believe the science is too immature to talk about harmful relativism
Even a six month old, without a language, can have a very sophisticated psychology. There is even a brainwave version of ‘what the fuck’

If this is true, does that mean that when the brain dies, that we go poof. If we are ghosts in the machine, and the machine dies, then what? First, as far as we know, yes. But, for those who are looking for a scientifically plausible explanation, programs can run on any suitable computational platform

There are credible, leading physicists who believe that we reside in what is called a multiverse, that our world is but a sliver of a much larger reality, and that there are worlds literally above and below us
It is also possible that we are living in a simulation universe, like the matrix

“the ink of the scholar is more sacred than the blood of the martyr”
Story based on a social worker who worked with these kinds of people, and disappeared, dragged down into another world. Focus on her personality and her psychological skills both
Maven of the to-do list
Sunlight is the best disinfectant. Things done in the dark don’t turn out well.
A society where dreaming is not considered necessary, and it is common to take medications to prevent dreaming. Turns out that while this seems tyrannical (and it is) it is a government institution to prevent the rise of dream manipulators (individuals who can feed off of, travel through, affect people through dreams, etc)
Cultural aspects- western cultures focus on people being fluent with labeling their emotional states. In eastern cultures, it is uncommon to be able to put emotions into words. Often stigmatized

So I found out something funny, and kind of encouraging

While antidepressants do run the risk of increasing thoughts of suicide, studies have shown that increased antidepressant use is also associated with a decrease in numbers of SUCCESSFUL suicides.

Good to know.

A man popped open a can of Red Bull in the middle of an exam today

It is completely normal for me to want to kill him, right?

It'd be abnormal if you DIDN'T want to kill him.

I just realized that even if I were interested in dating, I am probably too socially inept to pick up on social cues and actually talk to girls (or guys as the case could be in a fictional scenario)
Example: girl comes up to me in the cafeteria and asks me 'is this seat taken?'
I say no
Girl sits down and starts to say something, but I am already getting up and packing my bag
'I needed to head over to strong anyway'
And walk off
and the girl is just sitting there, heartbroken, because she had been building up the courage to talk to me, and i just walked off

God DAMN IT
I am getting sad, and angry at myself, over a fictional scenario i made up in my head!
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!?!?!!!?!?!??!

Practice makes perfect. Just start paying more attention to every fine detail about a person and how they act. Then again, I started doing that a long time ago, and now I hate people and don't want a relationship. Lol

In some cases, ignorance really is bliss.


EDIT

On second thought, if you were interested, we could totally go people-watching sometime and study behavior.

In reference to pre-edit: Didn't really care about having a relationship in the first place; kind of the point of the post

In reference to post-edit: sure. Sounds like fun

Me: Ma'am, this is not a look of 'go right ahead', this is a look of 'Are you fucking kidding me?'

I think there has come a point in literally every semester where I ask myself why the fuck I am still at college.

usually followed by a mild bout of passive suicidality

and then I smack myself and get back to work

why do I do this?

Me: (gets a sub-70 percent on exam) This is shit. I am shit

My TA: I had a Gen Chem class where people tested so poorly that a passing D was a 17%

Me: ...
...
...I am not quite that shit

Is it weird that it is like, 37 degrees here, and I am still wearing shorts?